10/7

If I wasn't sure before, I know now that age has no correlation to maturity. I think our life experiences mold us into the adults we are to become. I remember being young and hearing "grow up" or " you are not mature enough yet" that really wasn't the case though. I hadn't experienced enough. One very positive thing that I'm taking away from my mom being sick is that our lives are to short to think about things. Meaning, if a friendship isn't working out, end it. I thought I'd come to the conclusion of not just cutting people out of my life, but that is over. My life is to short to surround myself with people that I don't absolutely love. If I want to go sky diving (not likely) then don't put it off, go today! If I want my family to take a vacation, I want to plan it, not put it on a bucket list. I'm making every millisecond matter to me.

Before you freak out, I'm not having a life crisis. I'm having a wake up call. I think it's safe to say that we all have the "I wish I would have done this"  scenarios in our lives. I don't want too many of those. I want to improve the quality of my life. I think this idea has gotten a hold of Justin as well. He's been talking about ending his career in the Army in the past few weeks. Not anytime soon, but he definitely doesn't want to be a lifer anymore.

I am over the moon about that. With everything our family is dealing with, I think time is a major topic of conversation for us. I also wanted to say thank you to some of the people here in Georgia. I am a person that needs time to process. I need time to myself when I'm hurting, thank you to those who reached out but allowed me to deal with this personal matter with my family. Knowing I have support in this foreign state has moved me in ways I have never felt.

Every so often this happens. I find that humanity has hope. That kindness and selflessness in the world is still present. When you are faced with bumps in the road I think it makes a bigger impact than we realize. Back to my initial thought,  No, my age isn't allowing me to find maturity. The life experiences I am enduring are the cause for that. Some of them are painful, some of them I don't understand, but at the end of the day, I wouldn't be this person I've become without them.

P.S. I think I'm feeding my sadness today. Listen to this song. *WARNING* It will cause tears. Somehow music paves my soul over with calmness.