Washington on my mind

Tuesday, October 22, 2013
We got some nerve wrecking news about the compassion reassignment yesterday. It's been through Justin's COC and has been sent to HRC. Human resources has fourteen days to make a decision. fourteen days to tell us if we are moving to Washington. Fourteen days are going to determine our future. It's a lot to process. So much of me wants to go home, just for the sake of being home with my mom. Another part of me doesn't want to go back to Washington.  Mainly because Washington will be the state where I lose my mom. Washington is the state where I found myself. Where I made a lot of mistakes. Where I know everyone. So much history. I think that's the real reason why I haven't been able to get on a plane. I haven't been back in two years and nine months. That's a long time to be away from a place you once called home.

Then I think about all the things I love about Washington. My family. My friends. The lush evergreen trees. The cold weather. The city of Seattle. The rare occasion where warm sun beams on my face. The fact that I met Justin in Washington. Being able to have my bug with her grandma for a little while. The list could go on, but those are some of my favorites. You know, I really hope this compassion reassignment really does work in our favor. It's not a bad move for Justin's career. In fact, he can progress if we move back. He's trained on strikers and tanks. 

I'm going to try and focus on other things this week. Worrying about the approval of this move is going to drive me absolutely bonkers. Princess A makes this an easy task for her mama. She's been quite the handful lately. Moving like crazy whenever she's on her playtime mat. I don't take an eye off of her, not even for a second. I also have school work to keep me busy. I feel like I write a paper every other evening. I don't mind though, its actually kind of therapeutic. 

I really hope this week goes by fast. It seems like all I want to do is snuggle my baby bear and her papa bear. I've never been one to take family for granted, but with everything going on in my life, I tend to snuggle those two a little more than usual when I can. Justin continues to be supportive and helpful, he's even passed kind words and optimism to my mother (rare, he's a realist) on the phone the other day. I'm thankful for my mister. 

Well, that's all for now. I'm going to try and crank out some reading while Ava bug is taking her morning nap. Hopefully school work will temporarily take my mind off of everything that's going on right now. Happy Tuesday all! Make it a great day. 

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