Friday, May 9, 2014
I am so upset right now. Murphy's law is definitely hitting us lately. I'm not stressed over anything, just really confused as to why nothing can go according to plan. First, our friend/photographer had to cancel her trip out here (which I thought was going to be more devastating than it actually is), which forced me to evaluate our photo plans and the next couple of weeks. I found a new photographer, and I'm pretty pleased with that. I was even able to get my money back for certain tickets I bought for exploration. Now, Justin tells me that while he's at school for the month, he has to work two Saturdays because of the four days off due to Memorial day. Guess what sweet little girl had a birthday party planned on one of those Saturdays? Not to mention her actual birth date? Yep. Our baby.

Now, I know this isn't the end of the world, but I really am disappointed. I'm becoming less tolerant of people making comments too. I know they are trying to help, but certain comments don't help me. I know Ava won't remember anything from this birthday, I also know that no matter what we do, it'll turn out great. I really just had my heart set a certain way, and now almost all of those things have been compromised. Last year, Justin wasn't there when Ava was born. I mean, he was there, he just wasn't tangible. It meant the world to me to know that my two love bugs would together on Ava's big day. Granted, he will still be with us; just after his work day. Hopefully all of our family and friends can still make it out on Sunday for Ava's party. One of my little cousin's has a birthday coming up next week too. Her and Ava were going to blow out their candles at Ava's party. I am hoping we are still able to have that happen.

Justin is getting off super early today, and we have a fun weekend ahead. I'm trying to focus on that, and just enjoy spending time with my family. I'm really excited about my first Mother's day, and I'm almost positive I'm going to end up crying. More than anything, I'm pretty proud that I've made it through the first year of motherhood with minimal bumps in the road. This journey has been emotional, scary, and wonderful all at the same time. Well, thanks for listening guys. I really do have some amazing blog readers. I love getting the emails and messages from you guys. To all my fellow mama's, I hope you enjoy your special day this Sunday. There isn't any other job quite as special as being a mother, so give yourselves a pat on the back (and possibly a manicure)!

Happy Friday all!

♥- Leilani

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