Appreciate what you have

Wednesday, December 3, 2014
I think the title of this blog post is pretty much a given for all of us. There are so many things to be thankful for in our everyday lives, but sometimes we are so blinded by the things we want, that we forget to step back and really appreciate all that we have. I know I am definitely guilty of this. Especially as of late. *** More trying to conceive talk ahead*** aside from finding a new provider and discussing our route, Justin and I have yet to dive in and start the fertility process... why, you ask? Nerves, the feeling of not being ready, the comfortability we have in our family right now, etc? Pick one, and I'm sure I will concur. The fear of not being able to have another child has somehow consumed a lot of my thoughts, and rather than allowing ourselves to thoroughly enjoy the way our family is now, we are rolling this ball that truthfully ----> we aren't quite ready to roll yet.

We have our days (I must sound crazy on this blog), where we are more than excited to finally "start" trying for another baby.. and then, Ava does something new and spectacular, and there it is.. our hearts are filled. If I'm content and happy with all that I have now, why on earth am I trying to force another child before we are ready? Because I'm a mad woman! No seriously, I had to step back and regroup. I see a lot of my friends and family that are pregnant with baby # 2 and for a split second, that's when I think, "Ahh, I'm ready. I want that." Truth is, YES, I do want that.. just not with them or right now. It's taken me weeks to finally realize this you guys. A huge part of undergoing fertility is to have the right mind set. Being in a good place with your spouse and yourself before you think about adding addition lives to your life.

There are a lot of things we want to do with Ava before we add a sibling to her life. There is so much Justin and I want to do with each other before we add another baby into our lives. We have been discussing having a "baby moon" for my 24th birthday in VEGAS! Ava is at an age where I can leave her in the care of my family without worry, and I'm sure come March, I'll be even more at ease. The whole point of sharing my new revelations is to remember that I have so much to be happy about. I have a loving, supportive, and incredible man by my side, I have a super charismatic kid, and an adorable dog to boot! I have Washington state, good friends, family, and Starbucks around the corner. Not totally serious about Starbucks (I think), but I truly appreciate all that I have right now. I don't want for anything, and there is nothing better than being in this place I am right now. I haven't felt this good about decisions like this in weeks.

Whoo! That was a lot to take in. I still plan on vlogging for all of you! I'll share other things aside from fertility. How many of my readers went back and forth when making life decisions like this? Did you wait, did you rush? I'd love to hear from you in the comments below or by email.

Happy Wednesday all!

♥- Leilani

1 comment :

  1. This is exactly how I felt for soo long after having aubrey. Glad to know I'm not the only one. We've finally decided to have another one recent and very excited. Once we saw her love and care for her cousin a lot we knew we were ready. Another one would only add to the happiness we already know. I'm happy for you and your beautiful family! The time will come when it's right!