Sunday, April 28, 2013
Reviewing my life this evening. I have been on a posting rampage these last few days. I just don't ever want to forget how I feel right now in my life. At twenty two years of age I have to say, I never imagined having all that I have. I made sacrifices along the way and still to this day, I have no regrets on the decisions I made. My marriage has been one of the most fruitful aspects of my life. I have put literally everything I have and all that I am into my marriage. Countless emotions have been expressed and I could not thank the lord for a better partner in life. I say this a lot and If you know Justin, you know why. I have this human being that broke the mode when he came in this world and I get to call him my husband. Nothing has been perfect on our journey, but everything has been worth it and we have an amazing bond to show for it.

My pregnancy with Ava has molded me into this maternal being I never knew existed. Becoming a parent has been such an emotional phase of my life and I will never be the same, and that's for the better. Our reasons for wanting a baby were pure and justified. I've never had an icky feeling about my decision on why I wanted to be pregnant. Having Justin on board wholeheartedly from the beginning and eager to be a dad, makes this process even better ! There's something about settling down with the right man and starting a family with that man that amplifies the excitement of life. Life experience is another gain from the sacrifices I made. I moved 3,000 miles away from everything I ever knew. I haven't gone home once in the two years I left. I wanted to prove to myself that I could stand on my own two feet in my new life with Justin. I have exceeded the expectations of all those who loved me and even those who don't. As much as I HATE Georgia, Georgia reinforced all the values my parents spent so much time instilling in me. Honesty, persistence, integrity, compassion, being genuine, All those things STILL matter. They are still important and I will never lose sight of my values no matter where life or the Army takes Justin and I. I know myself. How many people can say they KNOW themselves? and are true to themselves ? I am proud of who I am. I married a man who is proud of who he married. I may have given up school, my family, my familiarity, and my friends. BUT when you look at all I have now, I know I made the right decisions. I still have my family, I still have my friends, even with distance. Georgia has become familiar and I can go back to school whenever I want to. So what did I really lose ? I want for nothing. It's the best feeling I have ever felt for myself. 

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