Two Weeks Postpartum

Thursday, February 4, 2016
I can't believe it's already been two weeks since I gave birth to Olivia. It doesn't seem possible that my sweet bean is already two weeks old. Things with my recovery have continued to be excellent, physically. I have actually been "coloring" with the mister since giving birth (I know, I know.. six weeks means six weeks) which was entirely unexpected. At this point after I had given birth to Ava, we were in the same scenario.. but being that Justin was deployed for 9 months... that was sort of to be expected considering how well my recovery went. I feel "healed" in my most sensitive areas and I can do everything I did prior to pregnancy, except carry Ava. I was instructed not to pick my 2.5 year old up, and for good reason.

30 lbs of toddler still makes me feel a bit winded, although I am not terribly concerned about hemorrhaging. When I imagined that most of my postpartum worries would be on an emotional level.. I couldn't have nailed that any much more accurately. This past week my mother was given a final window of life. Her team of doctors at UW have given her a MAX life expectancy of 90 days.. and that's putting it optimistically. I thought hearing the news would cause me to plummet entirely, but thankfully, I haven't. I'm pretty numb to the situation and I've kept my deep feelings at bay. I am still on cloud 9 due to the arrival of my second babe, and that has helped so tremendously. While I know I am no longer pregnant, I am breastfeeding. Breastfeeding is also a huge transfer of emotions between a mama bear and her baby.

I would never, ever give my sweet newborn even the slightest hint of worry when we are bonding. That's what keeps me sane. I can honestly say that my girls are without a doubt my saving grace through this entire experience. I'm not sure if I'll break down in a day, a week, a month, or a year... but I do know it will happen. Right now I'm trying to focus on finding a new normal as a family of four, making arrangements for my mother with her passing, and trying to bond with my family as we navigate through the inevitable at this point.

I've been taking prenatals, my placenta pills, and I'm anxiously awaiting my tincture. I'm hoping that all of these methods as well as talking and seeking support all around me helps with my postpartum healing. Speaking of, as of my two week mark the only constant use item I have is menstrual pads. My bleeding has definitely lasted longer this time around, but it has been light. I've had days with no bleeding, but then it returns the next day. Aside from pads, I haven't used any other type of postpartum item. I stopped using the perri bottle after week one, and have yet to use any other item as I am not hurting or in any pain.

I do see myself using the following items in the future (as I am taking an iron supplement soon in addition to prenatals)

Things I Will Use
  • Colace
  • Miralax
  • Preparation H
If you are a mama, you know exactly why those three items are essential to my future.

♥- Leilani

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