Wednesday, January 23, 2013
I have an immense love for Justin. A consuming love. A projected love. Marriage, has been such a spectacular journey for us. I see why a lot of people refer to marriage as an adventure. you get to see this couple emerge. A strong couple, a bound couple, as the adventure progresses. For our anniversary Justin sent me a video, basically him revealing his emotions openly. I have never been more proud of the man he is today. Watching my husband, smile at his cam, and talk to me about our lives, our daughter, how in depth his appreciation for me goes. I could not have asked for a better gift. It just blows me away sometimes. I am a strong woman. I have always been high strung, and very independent. My husband knows this. but i don't think he realizes that a lot of my "independence" is fueled by him. He is the type of person that reminds you that you can do anything, be anything, want anything and set out to achieve it. He motivates, he encourages, and he loves you even if you fail to succeed. Today was the worst day i have had probably in a year. Mainly because the woman drama continues to drain me, and things got a lot more serious today. It worried me a bit, just the extent of things. I hadn't had a chance to talk to Justin, he gets super busy sometimes. So all day i'm thinking, please let him call today. I NEED HIM. As soon as he calls, everything instantly just goes away. all the problems, all the drama, he said she said bull crap is out the window. You see as women i think we are all more prone to making things escalate, digging deeper holes, whatever you want to call it. When it comes to men, at least my man ;) He is so much more simplistic. His concerns in a day, are me and the baby and his safety. Simple right? he doesn't have time to worry about what people are saying, or doing. Not only does he not have the time on his hands, i believe even if he did, he would find something more constructive to do with his time. I feel so foolish, and childish when he calls, and he knows something's wrong, and i just let everything out, he says "baby you'll feel better" Not a lot of men could handle the home front issues while they're overseas. I know people say NOT to involve your spouse with petty problems back home. But with Justin and I, it's his connection to home. It enables him to be involved, even from miles away. Man i really did steer off topic. Point of the post was, my husband leaves me at a loss for words. I don't know what i'd do without him, who i'd be without him. And i'm glad i won't have to. I can't wait to grow old with you. I'll be dreaming of you tonight, handsome ! Stay Safe !

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