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TTC Baby #4: 13 Days of Stims

Wednesday, July 22, 2020

The oh so familiar trigger shot. 
Today is Thursday, July 14th, 2020 and this will be my 13th day since I first started taking Follistim injections. I don't know why in my mind I thought it'd be 10 days for stims and then I'd be taking a trigger shot? Slow and steady is always the way the reproductive endo wants to achieve mature follicles -- I wish my mind was okay with slow and steady. I went in for an ultrasound earlier this week and I was so bummed at the size of the follicles they found. They measured 14mm, 13mm, and 12mm. The magic number here is 20mm for a mature follicle. I'm hoping and praying tomorrow's ultrasound shows promise. I keep going through my thoughts wondering if I somehow already sabotaged this cycle? We went camping twice in the last week and of course, I had to take my shots while camping... what if the cooler didn't keep my meds cool enough? What if it wasn't as sterile as it should be? I know that I'm reaching... but these are the kinds of thoughts that flood my mind. I so badly want this cycle to take. I so badly want to forever say goodbye to all things fertility-related while I look at my four precious blessings. This season of my life has been filled with so much worry, joy, excitement, and heartbreak. I'm just praying that we can close this chapter with all our dreams coming true.

**UPDATE**

I went in this morning, Friday, July 17th, 2020 at 7:45am. My bloodwork was done and an ultrasound happened. The ultrasound showed two eggs measuring at 21mm and 20 mm and a few eggs measuring at 15mm and less. WOW. I wasn't expecting to have two 20mm eggs. I wanted to be happy about the fact that we were right where we were supposed to be, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. Justin and I both know that in our hearts, 4 kiddos have always been the magic number. Thinking about multiples (again) after our last heartbreak.. thinking about 5 kiddos. it's a lot. We knew the risks going into taking stimulants. I'm just praying that no matter what happens, it all works out for the best.

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