Next Time!

I've been thinking about this past year and all that has changed in my life. Now that deployment has been over for almost three whole months, everything is different. Not just with my family, or Justin, or marriage. Friends as well. You realize how much you have to depend on complete strangers when you choose to stay at your spouse's duty station. Those strangers become your friends (most times) and your life lines throughout the duration of deployment. Then, things change. It really is the inevitable. Once your spouse comes home from deployment, you no longer need those friends, those life lines, the same way you did before. I had a lengthy conversation with a wife who is still going through a deployment. She mentioned to me how she felt like these "friends" that she has made, have become fillers for her. It's kind of sad to think of human beings that way. This got me thinking a lot about what I'm going to do the next time Justin deploys. I have already started up a list (I really hope this isn't going to be anytime soon)

1. I WILL BE MOVING BACK TO MY HOME TOWN FOR THE ENTIRE DURATION OF DEPLOYMENT
2. I WILL BE BETTER ABOUT LETTING MY FAMILY BE THERE FOR ME EMOTIONALLY
3. I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO CLOSE IN. I WILL GET OUT AT LEAST ONCE A DAY (especially with Ava, I can't be some Debbie Downer)
4. I WILL FIND A MORE FREQUENT HOBBY. STAYING BUSY. STAYING HEALTHY. MIND BODY AND SOUL. 

That's all I've got for now. I really don't know what has caused me to write about a next deployment when I'm barely out of the reintegration phase with this past deployment. Being proactive I guess. Going home is on my mind as of late. To think I will be home in a month is just too exciting. It's been over two years. I can't wait to see all my childhood friends, my family. I'm just SO ready. I'm so bummed Justin won't be joining us, but I plan on bringing him back some North West goodies! Well I'm off for now! The Mr. and I have made some work out plans to bring my "Sexy back" LOL his words, not mine! He's such a character.