Veterans day ended on the sweetest note. It's a little early for the holiday spirit to come over my husband, but long behold this year has been very different. I can't count how many times i've watched Justin randomly put on a Christmas station or how many times I've heard him talk about how much he loves this time of year. I knew these things, but this year there has been so much more vocal delight and I absolutely love it.
Tonight we lit the fire in our home and we watched the polar express with our girls. It was such a sweet memory for me. I'm trying to keep my spirits as high as i possibly can, but I would be lying if I said my mom wasn't in the back of my mind pretty much all the time. This is my first year without her. It's more emotional when I think about the memories I had with my mom growing up. I have been a firm believer in passing on traditions and of course I can't pass them on without thinking about who I got them from. Even still, I try to put my best thoughts forward and I try to keep a smile on my face. Last night was no exception, I was in such awe of my beautiful family.
Watching Ava light up and actually understand the movie was the best. She knows who Santa is, she understands that Christmas is important, and she understood the naughty/nice list. The list goes on, but it was nice to have her point on select details that her minds was curious about. At the end of the movie, the main character picked a silver bell for his gift from Santa... I am going to get Ava a silver bell of her own. I know it'll add more of a connection to the film and it's something she can keep forever.
To add to this excitement, we purchased tickets to a polar express ride this year and I know that it is going to be an ABSOLUTE blast for my sweet girl. Olivia is still a babe, but I hope when she looks back on the videos/pictures that she appreciates the fact that we tried to make their holiday so, so special. To add to the happiness that is this time of year - Texas weather has finally started to get it's act together. We have had 70/65 degree weather, so it's starting to feel like it should.. F-A-L-L. Justin had a few days off from work this week so I'm hoping the rest of his time off proves to be equally as special.
I'm still a big fan of USAREC, recruiting, and seeing my husband every single day. I can't tell you how great this feels. Although we have to get accustomed to not taking two weeks of vacation in the winter, I think somehow we will manage. We have so many things planned for our holiday season. I can't wait to share them all with you!
Happy Veterans day to all of the men and women in our armed forces! We are forever indebted to you for your sacrifices.
♥- Leilani
Veteran's Day
Friday, November 11, 2016
Monday, November 30, 2015
I may or may not have already shared this, but this past month has been a HUGE one on a personal level for me. I obtained a business license for my photography endeavors and I have been working on networking, marketing, and really branding myself these past few weeks. It was a really big step for me, as I have always said that photography is definitely a hobby. I'm really shocked at the gradual growth that came along with my passion for photography, but it's also exciting to be expanding my skills and doing something that makes me happy. That being said, taking on a business endeavor while 8 months pregnant, in the middle of college courses, all while having a 2.5 year old and her daddy? Not so easy. I try to remind myself that even with a family and other priorities, finding something that is just for me is necessary. I have been getting a bit emotional about the work schedule though. This weekend alone, I spent 8 waking hours away from my family. I really can't remember the last time (if ever) I spent that much time away from Ava or Justin on our weekends together.
I got a little teary eyed yesterday on the way to my afternoon session, but it was instantly replaced with a smile when I met the family I was to photograph. I'm optimistic that incorporating this business into my lives will only force even more balance into my world. Justin reminded me that even he has to find balance with his demanding career. While he absolutely hates being away from his girls, he has a job to do, and that has to be a major priority in our lives. The added bonus to everything has been the amount of time Ava bug and her daddy get to bond just one on one. I'm so excited about it because I know once Olivia arrives, this concept won't be completely foreign. I do have to make a decision on what I plan to do once our second baby girl does make her entrance into the world, because everything outside of her and our family will be taking the back burner.
On another note, Thanksgiving for the Howland family could not have gone better. Justin and I woke up at 530 am on Thanksgiving morning to prepare the turkey, and get a head start on some of our other dishes. While I hated waking up early, the outcome was definitely rewarding. This year was the best turkey Justin and I have ever made! It was completely perfect and it definitely received a lot of great reviews. My heart was full knowing we opened our home to other military members and their families. While Thanksgiving was definitely a busy and tiring day, we ended our night watching a Christmas movie. I'd say that's another successful holiday down for us!
Justin also re-enlisted in Seattle (at the Space Needle) this past week. That was an amazing experience to be apart of. Wouldn't you know that in our marriage, each time he's reenlisted, he's been either overseas or out of state at a training facility. It was pretty awesome to have both Ava and I there to witness such a proud moment. Speaking of proud moments, it's also really weird to have a potty trained toddler. I'm going to write up an entirely different post on that, but seriously... watching Ava go into the bathroom alone to handle her business, alone... It's definitely different. We are proud of her, and I'm extremely proud that this switch was made on her time. Tomorrow I'll be 33 weeks pregnant, and I'm sure I'll be sharing some type of update, so look out for that! On that note, Happy Monday all! I hope you all enjoy your week.
♥- Leilani
I got a little teary eyed yesterday on the way to my afternoon session, but it was instantly replaced with a smile when I met the family I was to photograph. I'm optimistic that incorporating this business into my lives will only force even more balance into my world. Justin reminded me that even he has to find balance with his demanding career. While he absolutely hates being away from his girls, he has a job to do, and that has to be a major priority in our lives. The added bonus to everything has been the amount of time Ava bug and her daddy get to bond just one on one. I'm so excited about it because I know once Olivia arrives, this concept won't be completely foreign. I do have to make a decision on what I plan to do once our second baby girl does make her entrance into the world, because everything outside of her and our family will be taking the back burner.
On another note, Thanksgiving for the Howland family could not have gone better. Justin and I woke up at 530 am on Thanksgiving morning to prepare the turkey, and get a head start on some of our other dishes. While I hated waking up early, the outcome was definitely rewarding. This year was the best turkey Justin and I have ever made! It was completely perfect and it definitely received a lot of great reviews. My heart was full knowing we opened our home to other military members and their families. While Thanksgiving was definitely a busy and tiring day, we ended our night watching a Christmas movie. I'd say that's another successful holiday down for us!
Justin also re-enlisted in Seattle (at the Space Needle) this past week. That was an amazing experience to be apart of. Wouldn't you know that in our marriage, each time he's reenlisted, he's been either overseas or out of state at a training facility. It was pretty awesome to have both Ava and I there to witness such a proud moment. Speaking of proud moments, it's also really weird to have a potty trained toddler. I'm going to write up an entirely different post on that, but seriously... watching Ava go into the bathroom alone to handle her business, alone... It's definitely different. We are proud of her, and I'm extremely proud that this switch was made on her time. Tomorrow I'll be 33 weeks pregnant, and I'm sure I'll be sharing some type of update, so look out for that! On that note, Happy Monday all! I hope you all enjoy your week.
Here's a picture of Justin and Ava at the Space Needle after his reenlistment! 520 feet off the ground.
♥- Leilani
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Something tragic happened a couple weekends ago that truly rattled me to my core. I am so over the destructive world that has become the reality of our lives these days. In the mists of trying to comprehend what happened, and trying to prevent myself from entering this emotional funk of grief for those who were impacted... I decided I wanted to embrace all the good, love, and happy in my own life. That meant, putting up Christmas decor and the Christmas tree SUPER early this year! To my surprise, Justin was on board, as he too wanted to feel some good that this time of year always provides for my family. Let me just say, putting up Christmas stuff while almost 31 weeks pregnant was no easy chore. My feet hurt so much more quickly then ever before, and I definitely wasn't as much help as I normally am. I haven't been pregnant for the holidays in two years, and even when I was pregnant with Ava, Justin was deployed.. so that meant I didn't do nearly as much decorating or celebrating without my love home.
Ava bug was a HUGE help this year! She was a big help last year, but I definitely think she wanted to play with ornaments and candy canes last year, where is this year, she wanted everything on the tree... sometimes even before we were ready for it. She helped unpack the Christmas boxes, she watched her daddy untangle the inevitable mess of lights, and she jammed along with the Bing Crosby pandora station we had going. This was hands down my favorite party of decorating this year. Watching my 2.5 year old just bask in the glory that is family time and celebration is always a sight to see. Side note, I am so glad that we invested in Christmas decor throughout all the years we've been married. We have a surplus amount of decor, and I think it's safe to say we won't need to pick up anything major for a good, long while.
With pregnancy brain being live, we had to redo the Christmas lights on the tree on two different occasions. I forgot to connect the correct ends one time, and I totally spaced that we had more strings of light on the other. It was tedious, but Justin was such a trooper. Putting up our special ornaments after the lights and garland is my absolute favorite. Adding Olivia's ornament just made my heart soar entirely. We have so many handmade ornaments from Justin's grandmother, and each time we add a new member to this family she sends us another blue bird ornament. I can't wait to have Livy's on the tree next year. This year was my first year with a prime lens for my camera, so I immediately tried to take a shot of that special Christmas bokeh.. I have only attempted this twice, and both times were right before bed. I did achieve the bokeh, but I'm definitely going to try and clean it up a bit the next time I give it a go.
With Thanksgiving just days away, I am definitely soaking up the holiday spirit. I can already foresee tons of hot chocolate cuddles, all warm and toasty, watching classic holiday movies until Christmas arrives! This year has got me even more ancy, as the "high" from the holidays won't wind down until after Olivia arrives. That's like having 4 MAJOR holidays in one swoop! Take a look at some of the photos I managed to get with putting up the tree this year.
♥- Leilani
Ava bug was a HUGE help this year! She was a big help last year, but I definitely think she wanted to play with ornaments and candy canes last year, where is this year, she wanted everything on the tree... sometimes even before we were ready for it. She helped unpack the Christmas boxes, she watched her daddy untangle the inevitable mess of lights, and she jammed along with the Bing Crosby pandora station we had going. This was hands down my favorite party of decorating this year. Watching my 2.5 year old just bask in the glory that is family time and celebration is always a sight to see. Side note, I am so glad that we invested in Christmas decor throughout all the years we've been married. We have a surplus amount of decor, and I think it's safe to say we won't need to pick up anything major for a good, long while.
With pregnancy brain being live, we had to redo the Christmas lights on the tree on two different occasions. I forgot to connect the correct ends one time, and I totally spaced that we had more strings of light on the other. It was tedious, but Justin was such a trooper. Putting up our special ornaments after the lights and garland is my absolute favorite. Adding Olivia's ornament just made my heart soar entirely. We have so many handmade ornaments from Justin's grandmother, and each time we add a new member to this family she sends us another blue bird ornament. I can't wait to have Livy's on the tree next year. This year was my first year with a prime lens for my camera, so I immediately tried to take a shot of that special Christmas bokeh.. I have only attempted this twice, and both times were right before bed. I did achieve the bokeh, but I'm definitely going to try and clean it up a bit the next time I give it a go.
With Thanksgiving just days away, I am definitely soaking up the holiday spirit. I can already foresee tons of hot chocolate cuddles, all warm and toasty, watching classic holiday movies until Christmas arrives! This year has got me even more ancy, as the "high" from the holidays won't wind down until after Olivia arrives. That's like having 4 MAJOR holidays in one swoop! Take a look at some of the photos I managed to get with putting up the tree this year.
Monday, April 6, 2015
Oh my goodness you guys! Let me just start out with saying that this weekend was seriously one of the busiest weekends I have had in the past month. Easter with Ava was nothing short of amazing and I can't believe my sweet girl rocked the shaky schedule as well as she did. Let's do a little recap of how our weekend festivities played out. On Saturday we woke up and immediately headed downstairs for our morning routine. We ate a light breakfast and we were out the door by 11 a.m. I stopped to pick up thank you flowers for my best friend's mom (she watched Ava the day before while I went out and got a pedicure), and we headed over to a HUGE chamorro style Easter get together. There were so many people there, I wasn't sure how Ava was going to do. There were over a dozen kids there, some a lot older than her. The youngest baby was just six months old, and Ava absolutely loved her. She also grew fond of an (almost) one year old, and mimicked her army crawl all over the living room. We got there before a lot of people (believe it or not) so Ava watched her god mother cook in the kitchen, and she explored the house and the faces she hadn't seen before.
A couple hours had passed and after socializing and feasting, Ava participated in her first Easter egg hunt. They had two different egg hunts on Saturday. One for the toddlers and another for the older kids. I think there were like three or four toddlers Ava's age for the first egg hunt. Ava collected more eggs than her basket would hold and she ended up taking away the golden egg! The golden egg had five dollars in it, but Ava was more interested in kissing the egg, than claiming her prize. It was the cutest thing ever! She ventured off a lot without me, and somehow that ended up being okay with me. I hate to admit it, but my toddler can most definitely hold her own in a social setting. I was proud of both of us for not being stuck to one another like usual. We ended our Saturday with more food, a sleep over, and god mama cuddles! We didn't get home until after six and Ava hadn't napped at all on Saturday. She completely knocked out after her bath, and I was grateful since I knew that Sunday was going to be equally as busy.
Sunday we woke up earlier than I anticipated and the first thing Ava did was go through her Easter basket downstairs. She was in complete awe. It was so sweet to watch her delicately touch everything. She was in awe of the basket, her basket liner, her bunny... you get the picture. She loved the chalk and she absolutely loved her book and bubbles most of all. Easter basket time led into breakfast and we got ready to head out for our Easter church service. Ava hasn't been to my church since just before she was a year old, so I was a little nervous on how a toddler in church would go down. To my surprise she did amazing. She had her hands in the air and she swayed as we worshiped and praised. It brought tears to my eyes. Towards the end of the sermon we migrated into the nursery because Ava didn't want to sit down. The nursery has a flat screen for the mom's to tune into the service, and a whole lot of toys for the babies to play with. Ava's new little friend baby P joined us shortly after, and Ava was completely in awe of her. Watching my daughter with a six month old literally made my ovaries ache! Babies are definitely on the noggin as of now. Ava helped out so much with the little one and that made my heart so happy.
She knew just what to do with the baby. She tried to burp her, she tried to help feed her, and she held her. She loved on her. For an only child, I was in complete awe at how well Ava had mastered all of this. It took me a moment to really get it, but she mastered it so well because that's how Justin and I are with her. We deal with her delicately. With ease. Anywho, we topped off our afternoon with an Easter lunch and we spent the rest of our evening outdoor enjoying chalk art and other Easter goodies the babe got. A little before 7 p.m. Ava signaled to me to let me know she was tired, so we actually got ready for bed a lot sooner than normal. My child was out by 730 p.m. last night and I knew it was because of all that we had going on this weekend. Although we had SO much fun, I'm glad that we are getting back to our normal schedule.
Take a look at Ava grabbing her eggs:
A couple hours had passed and after socializing and feasting, Ava participated in her first Easter egg hunt. They had two different egg hunts on Saturday. One for the toddlers and another for the older kids. I think there were like three or four toddlers Ava's age for the first egg hunt. Ava collected more eggs than her basket would hold and she ended up taking away the golden egg! The golden egg had five dollars in it, but Ava was more interested in kissing the egg, than claiming her prize. It was the cutest thing ever! She ventured off a lot without me, and somehow that ended up being okay with me. I hate to admit it, but my toddler can most definitely hold her own in a social setting. I was proud of both of us for not being stuck to one another like usual. We ended our Saturday with more food, a sleep over, and god mama cuddles! We didn't get home until after six and Ava hadn't napped at all on Saturday. She completely knocked out after her bath, and I was grateful since I knew that Sunday was going to be equally as busy.
Sunday we woke up earlier than I anticipated and the first thing Ava did was go through her Easter basket downstairs. She was in complete awe. It was so sweet to watch her delicately touch everything. She was in awe of the basket, her basket liner, her bunny... you get the picture. She loved the chalk and she absolutely loved her book and bubbles most of all. Easter basket time led into breakfast and we got ready to head out for our Easter church service. Ava hasn't been to my church since just before she was a year old, so I was a little nervous on how a toddler in church would go down. To my surprise she did amazing. She had her hands in the air and she swayed as we worshiped and praised. It brought tears to my eyes. Towards the end of the sermon we migrated into the nursery because Ava didn't want to sit down. The nursery has a flat screen for the mom's to tune into the service, and a whole lot of toys for the babies to play with. Ava's new little friend baby P joined us shortly after, and Ava was completely in awe of her. Watching my daughter with a six month old literally made my ovaries ache! Babies are definitely on the noggin as of now. Ava helped out so much with the little one and that made my heart so happy.
She knew just what to do with the baby. She tried to burp her, she tried to help feed her, and she held her. She loved on her. For an only child, I was in complete awe at how well Ava had mastered all of this. It took me a moment to really get it, but she mastered it so well because that's how Justin and I are with her. We deal with her delicately. With ease. Anywho, we topped off our afternoon with an Easter lunch and we spent the rest of our evening outdoor enjoying chalk art and other Easter goodies the babe got. A little before 7 p.m. Ava signaled to me to let me know she was tired, so we actually got ready for bed a lot sooner than normal. My child was out by 730 p.m. last night and I knew it was because of all that we had going on this weekend. Although we had SO much fun, I'm glad that we are getting back to our normal schedule.
Take a look at Ava grabbing her eggs:
♥- Leilani
Friday, November 21, 2014
This last week has been full of complete holiday cheer and large amounts of hot chocolate consumption. Seriously, as much as people would like to give each holiday the "proper" amount of recognition, how many of my readers are getting ancy for December to roll around? I'm definitely guilty. It's not even just the spirit of Christmas this year for me. It's the countdown, it's the possibility of snow, and it's the added benefit of being around the people I love most in this world. Nothing gets my spirits or mood higher than the holiday cheer all around me. I can't wait to take my family through the streets of downtown Seattle next month. All the lights, the people, the decorated trees... Ahh! This is what this year represents for me: memories that last a lifetime. I'm also itching to take some lifestyle photos of Justin and Ava bug during their first Seattle trip during December. I can just picture them now.. all bundled up, Ava bug holding daddy's hand. Are you swooning yet? I know I am.
Because of the total "Type A" personality I have, I've found myself making mental checklists of everything I'd like to accomplish in the next few weeks. This week is the last of our grocery haul for Thanksgiving, family pictures, and getting our holiday cards finalized and ready to ship out the following week. I love being able to send out cards the first week of December. Nothing makes me happier knowing that my holiday cheer stricken face will be on the refrigerators of my family and friends. Totally joking, but isn't that what we all do? Next week I'm going to take some photos of families at local tree farms.. I'm a bit nervous for that, but excited that I've been sought out to do something like this. I don't consider my photos "top notch" for anyone but myself, so I'm humbled to be doing this for others.
The following week consists of me cleaning out the closets of all three Howland's and donating them to those in need this holiday season. Even with all the crazy stuff happening in my world right now, I try not to forget those who are indeed in need. There are millions of people who won't have a cheery season this year, and sometimes they just need a helping hand. Whether that be clothes, food, or donating to your local toys for tots, anything big or small helps out more than you know. I plan on taking my entire family to a couple soup kitchens this year. I know it's not much, but I really want to be with those who are hurting this year. I want to pray for them, I want to give them optimism, I want to try and give them hope. I know people don't just plan to be in awful situations, and truth be told that can be anyone of us guys. One day we can have it all, and the next all of our stability can be taken from us. It's important to remember that we can all uplift someone in need. If you need help locating a soup kitchen or food pantry near you, homelessshelterdirectory.org has all the information you need.
♥- Leilani
Because of the total "Type A" personality I have, I've found myself making mental checklists of everything I'd like to accomplish in the next few weeks. This week is the last of our grocery haul for Thanksgiving, family pictures, and getting our holiday cards finalized and ready to ship out the following week. I love being able to send out cards the first week of December. Nothing makes me happier knowing that my holiday cheer stricken face will be on the refrigerators of my family and friends. Totally joking, but isn't that what we all do? Next week I'm going to take some photos of families at local tree farms.. I'm a bit nervous for that, but excited that I've been sought out to do something like this. I don't consider my photos "top notch" for anyone but myself, so I'm humbled to be doing this for others.
The following week consists of me cleaning out the closets of all three Howland's and donating them to those in need this holiday season. Even with all the crazy stuff happening in my world right now, I try not to forget those who are indeed in need. There are millions of people who won't have a cheery season this year, and sometimes they just need a helping hand. Whether that be clothes, food, or donating to your local toys for tots, anything big or small helps out more than you know. I plan on taking my entire family to a couple soup kitchens this year. I know it's not much, but I really want to be with those who are hurting this year. I want to pray for them, I want to give them optimism, I want to try and give them hope. I know people don't just plan to be in awful situations, and truth be told that can be anyone of us guys. One day we can have it all, and the next all of our stability can be taken from us. It's important to remember that we can all uplift someone in need. If you need help locating a soup kitchen or food pantry near you, homelessshelterdirectory.org has all the information you need.
What are some of your holiday prep details? What are some of the fun traditions you and your family do around this time of year? I'd love to hear from you in the comments below or by email. I hope all my readers are feeling that holiday cheer I'm talking about after reading this blog. Not yet? How about now?
Happy Thursday all!
♥- Leilani
Friday, October 31, 2014
I can't believe this will be my last blog post for the month of October! This time of year always flies right on by, but I am loving every single second of it. I'm super excited for today, but not for the reasons many may think. Of course most enjoy the creative costumes, overload of candy, and Halloween party festivities occurring, but for my family that isn't the case. Halloween is special because some pretty monumental things have occurred on this day. Halloween 2010 was the first time Justin told me he was in love with me. He came home from a Halloween party on post covered in green cupcake (him and his battles had a cupcake war in the car), and he had the biggest smile on his face. I had no clue he was going to say it, but it was one of the sweetest, most tender moments in our relationship. That was the first time Justin really allowed himself to be vulnerable with me.
Today also marks the third birthday of our dog, Cooper. Oh, Cooper. He was the first baby I ever got to really mother. He taught me (some) patience, responsibility, and lots and lots of love. I remember Justin begging for a dog, and I was all too reluctant. I'm so glad he's apart of our family now and I can't believe our little boy is three! Cooper does so well with Ava bug and I couldn't be more thankful for the patience and love this pup gives to our little girl. I never thought I'd ever be that person that treated her animals like people, but they kind of are. They have their own emotions and thoughts, and Cooper is all too handy with letting us know what kind of mood he is in.
This Halloween is also the first time Ava bug is dressing up AND handing out candy. Last year, we had her in a "my first halloween" onesie and tutu. She was like a my first halloween ballerina! I think she had a tutu for every month and every single holiday (thanks Victoria)! This afternoon we are FINALLY carving our pumpkins, (if you are a Facebook friend, look out for those pictures later) and taking Halloween pictures of our sweet girl. Justin even purchases goodies to make pumpkin bars, and I'm sure we'll be roasting the pumpkin seeds shortly after. I'm super excited for all the fall festivities that will be occurring in our home today.
Take a look at my flashback Friday photo! It's crazy that the first picture was taken over four years ago.
Happy Halloween all!
♥- Leilani
Today also marks the third birthday of our dog, Cooper. Oh, Cooper. He was the first baby I ever got to really mother. He taught me (some) patience, responsibility, and lots and lots of love. I remember Justin begging for a dog, and I was all too reluctant. I'm so glad he's apart of our family now and I can't believe our little boy is three! Cooper does so well with Ava bug and I couldn't be more thankful for the patience and love this pup gives to our little girl. I never thought I'd ever be that person that treated her animals like people, but they kind of are. They have their own emotions and thoughts, and Cooper is all too handy with letting us know what kind of mood he is in.
This Halloween is also the first time Ava bug is dressing up AND handing out candy. Last year, we had her in a "my first halloween" onesie and tutu. She was like a my first halloween ballerina! I think she had a tutu for every month and every single holiday (thanks Victoria)! This afternoon we are FINALLY carving our pumpkins, (if you are a Facebook friend, look out for those pictures later) and taking Halloween pictures of our sweet girl. Justin even purchases goodies to make pumpkin bars, and I'm sure we'll be roasting the pumpkin seeds shortly after. I'm super excited for all the fall festivities that will be occurring in our home today.
Take a look at my flashback Friday photo! It's crazy that the first picture was taken over four years ago.
♥- Leilani
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
I'm writing this a little earlier in an effort to kind of exert some of my emotions. Almost a year to the day, I found out just how extensive my mother's illness was. I found out that she'd been sugar coating her health, and that she was given a small window of life expectancy. My entire world came crashing down this time last year. I had to face the fact that I am going to lose my mother much sooner than I expected. I had to face the fact that my children are not going to grow up with their grandma Esther. I had to face a lot of things, and while I hated every moment of it, the experience has made me a better human being. It has allowed me to be a better mother to my child, and a better spouse to my husband.
There are no words to describe how grateful I am for the Army granting the compassion reassignment. For without that, my mom would have been robbed the experience of bonding with her first grandchild. She would have been robbed the experience of reconnecting with her daughter whom she'd had a rocky relationship with for most of my adolescence. We both would have been robbed the time we could have had together. More than anything in this world, being back in my home state to help my mom, support her, and give her lots of love, has meant more to me than most things ever will. We've shared sleepover nights, family recipes, and lots of my childhood stories.
Even though my mom has beat the life expectancy window, she's still not in a super awesome place (health wise). Sometimes I feel like she's doing better, and then she has her bad days where I know she's not. I try not to talk about it, and I try to just enjoy her... It gets hard sometimes though. When I get upset with her, or we don't see eye to eye, I beat myself up. How can you be mad at your SICK mother? I try not to let her sickness make me feel guilty.. or allow it to change the way I act towards my mother, but sometimes that's hard to do. I don't want to take her for granted.
I'm still scared for her, and I'm still a nervous wreck about what the next six months will look like, but I am glad I've had the last (almost) nine months with my mom. She's been able to spend the holidays with us, babysit Ava bug when she feels up to it, and make memories I thought we'd never have. With my new camera upgrade will come (lots more) photos of Ava and my mom. Especially with our favorite fall holidays approaching. Here's a couple photos of Ava bug with her great grandma, and my mom. I love that she's been around for all of the milestones Ava had during her first year. Here's to hoping we have another good year with my mama.
♥- Leilani
There are no words to describe how grateful I am for the Army granting the compassion reassignment. For without that, my mom would have been robbed the experience of bonding with her first grandchild. She would have been robbed the experience of reconnecting with her daughter whom she'd had a rocky relationship with for most of my adolescence. We both would have been robbed the time we could have had together. More than anything in this world, being back in my home state to help my mom, support her, and give her lots of love, has meant more to me than most things ever will. We've shared sleepover nights, family recipes, and lots of my childhood stories.
Even though my mom has beat the life expectancy window, she's still not in a super awesome place (health wise). Sometimes I feel like she's doing better, and then she has her bad days where I know she's not. I try not to talk about it, and I try to just enjoy her... It gets hard sometimes though. When I get upset with her, or we don't see eye to eye, I beat myself up. How can you be mad at your SICK mother? I try not to let her sickness make me feel guilty.. or allow it to change the way I act towards my mother, but sometimes that's hard to do. I don't want to take her for granted.
I'm still scared for her, and I'm still a nervous wreck about what the next six months will look like, but I am glad I've had the last (almost) nine months with my mom. She's been able to spend the holidays with us, babysit Ava bug when she feels up to it, and make memories I thought we'd never have. With my new camera upgrade will come (lots more) photos of Ava and my mom. Especially with our favorite fall holidays approaching. Here's a couple photos of Ava bug with her great grandma, and my mom. I love that she's been around for all of the milestones Ava had during her first year. Here's to hoping we have another good year with my mama.
Happy Wednesday all!
♥- Leilani
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
First and foremost, I just want to say, Merry Christmas all! I hope all my readers had warm, inviting, holiday cheer with the people they love most in the world (I know I did). My Christmas started a little early this year. Justin and I decided to snuggle up on Christmas Eve, watch a funny movie, and exchange some special gifts while Ava was down for the night. I hadn't really expected anything major, I was just glad to have my family whole and together for the holidays. Wouldn't you know that I got diamonds for Christmas this year? Justin bough me a beautiful white gold necklace with two heart charms in the middle. There are little diamonds on each side of the bigger heart, and the smaller heart is full of them. I also got a set of beautiful white gold earrings. I was in complete shock. Apparently Justin purchased this gift awhile ago, he just hid it in a place he knew I'd never go looking (my husband is a wise man). I am still in awe over the gifts I received. I started crying a bit. Not so much over the gifts, but over my husband. He is such a loving man, that takes care of me in one million ones. If anything, that's really all I needed for Christmas. The presence of people will always mean more to me than the presents from people.
This morning we actually got to sleep in until after 9 (rare occasion), and when we woke up, we decided to let Ava go crazy on the wrapping paper before we made any calls or had any video chats. It was a blast seeing my little bug actually tearing the wrapping paper off of her gifts. I got most of this experience on video, and I'm just so thankful that Justin was here for everything. Cooper made out pretty well this year himself! He got so many stocking stuffers, treats, and more! We spent our day talking with family, and catching up with other loved ones. I thought being away from my extended family would hit me hard this year, but it didn't. Although Texas isn't our forever state, and this home isn't our forever home, today, it felt like it was. I made an entire Christmas dinner by myself, we watched the Nets game, Home Alone, and A Christmas story, today was just perfect.
Now that we've gotten passed the holiday season, New Years is in clear view. I decided to order a special calendar for our family this year. I made a calendar (through shutterfly) full of all the joy and happiness we experienced in 2013, in hopes that 2014 affords us even happier moments and memories. Speaking of 2014.. Justin and I have been going back and forth on the "trying to conceive front" We talked about baby # 2 today... and as long as life doesn't throw us any curve balls, we are going to try for baby # 2 in June of 2014. I'm excited about this already. I originally didn't want two small children so close together in age, and now I'm elated at the thoughts of having two Howland babies running around our home. The past seven months with Ava bug has reminded us that there is no right time to do anything. Especially when talking about expanding a family.
Looks like that's all I'm sharing for now! We have got ourselves a busy day tomorrow. We've got a little more than 3 weeks left here in Texas, and we plan on making the most of the time we still have here!
P.S. If you know a veteran, give them a hug today (if you are able to). Each day I say a little prayer for our soldiers overseas and their families that are left waiting on the home front. Without them, Christmas wouldn't be what it is for my family.
♥- Leilani
This morning we actually got to sleep in until after 9 (rare occasion), and when we woke up, we decided to let Ava go crazy on the wrapping paper before we made any calls or had any video chats. It was a blast seeing my little bug actually tearing the wrapping paper off of her gifts. I got most of this experience on video, and I'm just so thankful that Justin was here for everything. Cooper made out pretty well this year himself! He got so many stocking stuffers, treats, and more! We spent our day talking with family, and catching up with other loved ones. I thought being away from my extended family would hit me hard this year, but it didn't. Although Texas isn't our forever state, and this home isn't our forever home, today, it felt like it was. I made an entire Christmas dinner by myself, we watched the Nets game, Home Alone, and A Christmas story, today was just perfect.
Now that we've gotten passed the holiday season, New Years is in clear view. I decided to order a special calendar for our family this year. I made a calendar (through shutterfly) full of all the joy and happiness we experienced in 2013, in hopes that 2014 affords us even happier moments and memories. Speaking of 2014.. Justin and I have been going back and forth on the "trying to conceive front" We talked about baby # 2 today... and as long as life doesn't throw us any curve balls, we are going to try for baby # 2 in June of 2014. I'm excited about this already. I originally didn't want two small children so close together in age, and now I'm elated at the thoughts of having two Howland babies running around our home. The past seven months with Ava bug has reminded us that there is no right time to do anything. Especially when talking about expanding a family.
Looks like that's all I'm sharing for now! We have got ourselves a busy day tomorrow. We've got a little more than 3 weeks left here in Texas, and we plan on making the most of the time we still have here!
P.S. If you know a veteran, give them a hug today (if you are able to). Each day I say a little prayer for our soldiers overseas and their families that are left waiting on the home front. Without them, Christmas wouldn't be what it is for my family.
♥- Leilani
Sunday, December 22, 2013
I have been away from the computer, my phone, and even the t.v. for most of the last few days, and I have enjoyed every minute of it. Personal time is very important to my little family, and I'm glad we know when to step away from all that is technology. So what exactly have we been up to? Let's indulge! Board games. Yes, one of the most basic, old school activities. One day while out shopping, we stumbled upon an entire selection of board games. Sorry, monopoly, twister, etc. You name it, it was there. We decided to purchase a few, and to be honest I had no intention of actually playing all of them. Well, I was wrong. We have played almost every game we purchased. It's been great to see Justin's competitive streak come out, as well as my own.
The Howland's also took some gift wrapping lessons. Before I go any further I have to say I have a lot of strong suites, but wrapping gifts is just not one of them. My gift wrapping looked like it was mauled by wild animals. I can't believe my husband actually did this with me. He actually followed the instructions a lot more thoroughly than I did, and his presents were wrapped beautifully. All of Ava's gifts (with the exception of her toy box) are wrapped perfectly under our tree. I know Bug is a little too young to actually unwrap her presents, but we plan on letting her play with the wrapping paper, and let all the pretty colors fascinate her.
Since the weather has cleared up a bit, we have been spending quite a bit of time outdoors. Cooper loves the backyard in our Texas home, and he constantly has his paws on the door. This is his new way of signaling for us to let him out. Rather than staying cooped up in the house, we have been dedicating a little bit of our days to playing with our pooch. Justin throws the ball around, Ava tugs on his ears, it's really a great time. I know since bringing Ava into our family, Cooper doesn't get the same kind of attention he did before. I actually feel really bad about this. To make up for the past few months, (aside from outdoor play), I jam packed all of his favorite treats in his stocking, we took him to the groomers to be pampered, and the lucky little pooch manged to get a small plate of spaghetti this evening. Cooper seems to be enjoying life a lot more this week.
I just mentioned how the weather had cleared up, but it managed to rain on Saturday. I was so bummed about this because I thought we'd finally be able to make our way to Belton Lake. Why is Belton Lake so special? Well it's the nature in lights tour. It costs a whopping five dollars (per carload) and you get to enjoy the drive through over five and a half miles of holiday- inspired scenes.You even get to stop by Santa’s Village for hot chocolate, homemade cookies, seasonal crafts and a photo with Santa. They pass out free ornaments, and you can get a pony ride, or even stop by the petting zoo. I know Ava isn't old enough to make these memories, but I thought this event would be so great for our family, especially with Justin home for the holidays this year. The nature in lights lasts all the way until January 5th, so I know we'll make our way down there before December is over. If anyone is in the central Texas area, and wants a special holiday treat for their family, definitely give this place a look see!
Well it looks like I'm off! Christmas is 3 days away, and I haven't even finished wrapping Justin's gifts. I'm cooking an entire Christmas meal on my own, and I am so excited about it. I've added a few special side dishes on our Howland dinner menu, and I plan on attaching pictures, and recipes to a Christmas dinner blog post for all my readers to possibly try.
♥- Leilani
The Howland's also took some gift wrapping lessons. Before I go any further I have to say I have a lot of strong suites, but wrapping gifts is just not one of them. My gift wrapping looked like it was mauled by wild animals. I can't believe my husband actually did this with me. He actually followed the instructions a lot more thoroughly than I did, and his presents were wrapped beautifully. All of Ava's gifts (with the exception of her toy box) are wrapped perfectly under our tree. I know Bug is a little too young to actually unwrap her presents, but we plan on letting her play with the wrapping paper, and let all the pretty colors fascinate her.
Since the weather has cleared up a bit, we have been spending quite a bit of time outdoors. Cooper loves the backyard in our Texas home, and he constantly has his paws on the door. This is his new way of signaling for us to let him out. Rather than staying cooped up in the house, we have been dedicating a little bit of our days to playing with our pooch. Justin throws the ball around, Ava tugs on his ears, it's really a great time. I know since bringing Ava into our family, Cooper doesn't get the same kind of attention he did before. I actually feel really bad about this. To make up for the past few months, (aside from outdoor play), I jam packed all of his favorite treats in his stocking, we took him to the groomers to be pampered, and the lucky little pooch manged to get a small plate of spaghetti this evening. Cooper seems to be enjoying life a lot more this week.
Well it looks like I'm off! Christmas is 3 days away, and I haven't even finished wrapping Justin's gifts. I'm cooking an entire Christmas meal on my own, and I am so excited about it. I've added a few special side dishes on our Howland dinner menu, and I plan on attaching pictures, and recipes to a Christmas dinner blog post for all my readers to possibly try.
♥- Leilani
Friday, December 13, 2013
I can't believe I am writing this, but everything has managed to work itself out. Justin signed his 4187, and will be receiving his orders for Fort Lewis, WA. within a few days. I am so, so happy that human resources with the Army was so accommodating and helpful with our unique situation. Justin doesn't have to sign into this installation, but he is permissively (temporarily) signed in (so glad he isn't using up his leave days). He's kind of just in limbo right now. We submitted all the necessary paperwork to close out our DITY from Georgia to Texas and we will be receiving the rest of those funds in just a few weeks. For anyone thinking of doing a DITY move, it is so worth it. I still stick by this, only because we had a headache free experience. With Washington being over 2,000 miles way from us, it looks like we may be doing JPPSO. I'm a bit nervous about this because of all the horror stories I've heard. When we left Washington for Georgia three years ago, we utilized JPPSO... but that was also before we built up our home, and actually had things we'd be upset about losing or breaking. I think it still might be a toss up.. Justin and I have a lot to talk about. It looks like we'll only be in Texas for another month or so, before we end up leaving. There are a few things we'd like to see while we are here, and I'm hoping we get to check out some of the sites. I definitely want to explore Austin. Apparently it's the only "blue" in a "red" state. I've only heard good things, and I've got some family down that way. Christmas has been on my brain a lot today. With my mom not coming, I'm going to have to find a way to make the holiday super special. I know we are taking Ava to see Santa this weekend! So stoked for that! It'll be her first time taking pictures with Santa, and the second time for Justin and I. It's funny because I remember Justin telling me, that he was never taking pictures with Santa again, unless it was for our kids. Crazy to think he said that only 3 years ago. We have been ordering Christmas movies like crazy, since abc family's 25 days of Christmas has been disappointing. I'm sure they run the same movies every year, it just seems like they are skipping a lot of classics.
I'm excited about this collection! It has the Frosty originals, Rudolph, and a few more. Seven movies are included, and we haven't even made it through two yet. I can't wait to snuggle up to the fire, hot cocoa, and shiny Christmas tree lights, while we watch this. I love our Christmas traditions, and it has been an absolute blessing to have my husband home during my favorite time of year. I'm hoping since we actually own these movies, that we will bust them out each and every year, and hopefully Ava bug will be able to enjoy them as much as Justin and I do. Thinking about all that is Christmas has caused me to have a heavy heart....
Above all of the wonderful things going on right now, I'm just so thankful that my family is together. Even though I don't have a deployed soldier anymore, that doesn't mean that another family doesn't. Thinking back to how I felt last year without Justin... I would never want someone to ever have to experience that. It's lonely and scary, and emotional. So if you are reading this, thank a service member! They dedicate themselves 365 days a year, and without them, our freedoms wouldn't be what they are.
♥- Leilani
Above all of the wonderful things going on right now, I'm just so thankful that my family is together. Even though I don't have a deployed soldier anymore, that doesn't mean that another family doesn't. Thinking back to how I felt last year without Justin... I would never want someone to ever have to experience that. It's lonely and scary, and emotional. So if you are reading this, thank a service member! They dedicate themselves 365 days a year, and without them, our freedoms wouldn't be what they are.
Alright all, it looks like I'm off. It's Friday, and we still have a lot to do in preparation for Christmas. I think i'm going to scout out a ham a bit early this year. I am thinking of making my own glaze, maybe "wow" my husband a bit. It's weird to think that come next year Princess A will actually be able to enjoy her mama's cooking. Still wrapping my head around the fact that I shall soon have a crawling, babbling, seven month old baby. I hope everyone has a safe, and festive weekend!
♥- Leilani
Thursday, November 14, 2013
I am so ready for this week to be over. Nothing major has happened, but I am ready to celebrate Thanksgiving, for my finals (for my current courses) to be over, and to start crazy shopping for Christmas. We started our Christmas gift list this afternoon, and I'm really excited to be making unique, and creative gifts. I'm trying to figure out if we should hand out gifts that are more baby geared, (from Ava) or something they'd like. I haven't completely decided yet. On a high note, I think I'm going to start receiving new cloth products, for sponsored reviews. I am fully committed to cloth diapering, and I think I'd like to see what other types of cloth are available to me. I will post all my reviews on this blog, and include links from every merchant.
Oh, I forgot to share my "freak out mama" moment of the week. Anyone who knows me as a mother, knows I am beyond careful with my daughter. I don't take Princess A out to socialize when people are sick, I don't let little kids near her when they have harmful toys in their hands, I'm just overly protective of my daughter. Last night, Justin turned in his sleep (unaware that I had decided to bring Ava in our bed) and he elbowed her. It wasn't hard, but it startled her, and it caused her to bring out the bottom lip, and start crying for all of three seconds. I was really upset, and I did something I REALLY shouldn't have done... I googled, "my six month old was elbowed in the head" yeah.. not the smartest idea. I decided to inspect for a lump, and wake my child up every two hours to ensure that she was alright. Sometimes, I wish I wasn't so hardcore about things like this. My bug is so much more resilient than I give her credit for.
This weekend is pictures for Ava bug and her daddy! I'm so excited. Her Thanksgiving tutu looks awesome! (thank you Victoria) and it matches perfectly with her "my first Thanksgiving" onesie. I took the time to actually calculate all the holidays Ava has left in her first year of life, can you believe she only has five more? It's crazy! I plan on doing the " As I grow" photos, even once we move to wherever we move (still no news on that) It'll be a great addition to her first birthday, to have our favorite photo from each month of her life.
Well that's all for now. My husband came home from a Battalion motorcycle ride and he isnt' feeling very good. Poor thing, looks like I have two babies to take care of this evening!
Happy Thursday all!
♥- Leilani
Oh, I forgot to share my "freak out mama" moment of the week. Anyone who knows me as a mother, knows I am beyond careful with my daughter. I don't take Princess A out to socialize when people are sick, I don't let little kids near her when they have harmful toys in their hands, I'm just overly protective of my daughter. Last night, Justin turned in his sleep (unaware that I had decided to bring Ava in our bed) and he elbowed her. It wasn't hard, but it startled her, and it caused her to bring out the bottom lip, and start crying for all of three seconds. I was really upset, and I did something I REALLY shouldn't have done... I googled, "my six month old was elbowed in the head" yeah.. not the smartest idea. I decided to inspect for a lump, and wake my child up every two hours to ensure that she was alright. Sometimes, I wish I wasn't so hardcore about things like this. My bug is so much more resilient than I give her credit for.
This weekend is pictures for Ava bug and her daddy! I'm so excited. Her Thanksgiving tutu looks awesome! (thank you Victoria) and it matches perfectly with her "my first Thanksgiving" onesie. I took the time to actually calculate all the holidays Ava has left in her first year of life, can you believe she only has five more? It's crazy! I plan on doing the " As I grow" photos, even once we move to wherever we move (still no news on that) It'll be a great addition to her first birthday, to have our favorite photo from each month of her life.
Well that's all for now. My husband came home from a Battalion motorcycle ride and he isnt' feeling very good. Poor thing, looks like I have two babies to take care of this evening!
Happy Thursday all!
♥- Leilani
Friday, November 1, 2013
Halloween was a bit of a dud! I was so disappointed with the small amount of trick or treaters we got. I thought living in a subdivision would supply us with an overload of kiddos last night. Justin cut open our cute little bags we had (he thought we were going to run out of candy) and decided to pour them all in the candy bowl. Now we are stuck with SO much candy. Other than that, our night was fantastic. It was so fun seeing my husband light up when the door bell rang. He was just so cool! Telling our trick or treaters how awesome their costumes were, smiling and holding Ava whenever he answered the door. We made a decision about future Halloweens, we will not be taking Ava until she is old enough to say, "Trick-or-treat." We got a lot of little kiddies last night and I feel like it's a little ridiculous to take them out late at night, for all that candy, they won't be able to eat. We will be dressing her up next year, she'll just be on candy duty at home.
I am glad October is behind us though. November marks two of my favorite holidays. Veterans day, and Thanksgiving. I want to do something really special for Justin this year, since he was deployed last year. I'm already brainstorming an epic day for him! I'm thinking about dressing Ava up as an adorable turkey for her Thanksgiving photos. Honestly, how cute would that be? I love this time of year, I really, really LOVE it! I'm loving it more this year, because in a matter of weeks, we'll be out of Georgia!
I say this a lot, but I am SO SO glad Justin is here for the first year of Princess A's life. I can't imagine going through all these holidays, and special events without him. I have been looking at all the photos we have taken since he returned from Afghanistan, I've got to tell you, they mean more to me than gold. I can't imagine doing her first Christmas morning without him, or her first New Year. It's also nice to see us grow as parents, together. Everyone knows about maternal instincts, but paternal instincts are just as strong as well.
Ava will be six months old in 16 days... This is so crazy for me. Having babies really does make the time move so much faster. We have been talking about Howland babies again. Looks like we'll be trying in NOV 2014. I'm hoping we get lucky and it only takes us a month or so to conceive another babe. Ava will be eighteen months, it's really a perfect time for us. I'm having trouble grasping the fact that I will be 23 years old next year. I wonder how weird that is for my parents? Having their little girl completely grown up, with her own child.
Feels like it happened in a blink of an eye. Well, I'm off! We've got a busy weekend, and I've got some school work to do. Justin has today off, so i'm staying off of networking sites most of the weekend! I hope everyone had an awesome Halloween! Happy Friday!
♥- Leilani
I am glad October is behind us though. November marks two of my favorite holidays. Veterans day, and Thanksgiving. I want to do something really special for Justin this year, since he was deployed last year. I'm already brainstorming an epic day for him! I'm thinking about dressing Ava up as an adorable turkey for her Thanksgiving photos. Honestly, how cute would that be? I love this time of year, I really, really LOVE it! I'm loving it more this year, because in a matter of weeks, we'll be out of Georgia!
I say this a lot, but I am SO SO glad Justin is here for the first year of Princess A's life. I can't imagine going through all these holidays, and special events without him. I have been looking at all the photos we have taken since he returned from Afghanistan, I've got to tell you, they mean more to me than gold. I can't imagine doing her first Christmas morning without him, or her first New Year. It's also nice to see us grow as parents, together. Everyone knows about maternal instincts, but paternal instincts are just as strong as well.
Ava will be six months old in 16 days... This is so crazy for me. Having babies really does make the time move so much faster. We have been talking about Howland babies again. Looks like we'll be trying in NOV 2014. I'm hoping we get lucky and it only takes us a month or so to conceive another babe. Ava will be eighteen months, it's really a perfect time for us. I'm having trouble grasping the fact that I will be 23 years old next year. I wonder how weird that is for my parents? Having their little girl completely grown up, with her own child.
Feels like it happened in a blink of an eye. Well, I'm off! We've got a busy weekend, and I've got some school work to do. Justin has today off, so i'm staying off of networking sites most of the weekend! I hope everyone had an awesome Halloween! Happy Friday!
♥- Leilani
Monday, October 28, 2013
This weekend was a hectic one. Aside from being in the mall for over three hours shopping for Christmas outfits (the trip was a success), I managed to scrub down the entire house, get our goody bags ready for Halloween, and get ahead of the learning curve in my next week's course. For a mom, a wife, and a student, that's a lot to have gotten done. I'm still a fan of time management, I don't know how I lived life without it!
Macy's was good to me on Saturday. I picked out Ava bug's first set of ornaments and I am in love. They are little glass shoes, with pick laces. Over the shoes it says My first Christmas in pink letters, with the year. We almost bought a nutcracker too! We decided against it, but I think we'll end up getting one after Thanksgiving. I found a new ornament for Justin and I. Each year of our marriage we have always received home made ornaments from Justin's Nana. I LOVE them! They mean so much to us. With Nana's idea in mind, I set out to buy very special ornaments for each Christmas we spend together. The year before last was a football, it was decked out in glitter and sparkles. This year I'm thinking of getting something to represent a family of two becoming a family of three.
This year will also be the first Halloween Justin and I pass out candy. I am so excited. I've been so late with the Halloween decor (not my favorite holiday) but I'm so excited for the trick-or-treaters. We spent over an hour bagging candy into little festive bags. This will be Ava's first Halloween, and even though she's not doing anything extraordinary, I'm glad Justin will be here to hold her up in her little tutu, while passing out candy.
♥- Leilani
Macy's was good to me on Saturday. I picked out Ava bug's first set of ornaments and I am in love. They are little glass shoes, with pick laces. Over the shoes it says My first Christmas in pink letters, with the year. We almost bought a nutcracker too! We decided against it, but I think we'll end up getting one after Thanksgiving. I found a new ornament for Justin and I. Each year of our marriage we have always received home made ornaments from Justin's Nana. I LOVE them! They mean so much to us. With Nana's idea in mind, I set out to buy very special ornaments for each Christmas we spend together. The year before last was a football, it was decked out in glitter and sparkles. This year I'm thinking of getting something to represent a family of two becoming a family of three.
Did I mention how wonderful Sunday was? The Broncos won (which is enough to make any Sunday wonderful) and we got a lot of things done at home. Justin bathed Cooper for the first time since he got back from Afghanistan (we usually send him to the groomers), he cleaned his grill out (for the second time in a long while), and we spent a good chunk of time outdoors with Ava bug. She got her little toes wet for the first time by a hose. We've been looking at houses in Washington and Texas. Trying not to get too excited about either location, but it's been hard.
Justin has a three day this weekend (I can't wait for Thursday to hurry up and get here). We are buying everything we need for making baby food at home for Bug. She is definitely showing signs that she's ready for solids! We've got less than 3 weeks until Princess A is 6 months old (time flies), and I just want to be prepped and ready to give her some yummy purees.
well that was a lot more than I intended on writing. It's Monday, so pave the fabulous-ness for the week! Happy Monday all!
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
I have finally come up for air! These past few days have been hectic. Turns out our entire household is going through a cold. I don't feel great, but I don't feel awful. Just icky. On the upside, I have maintained almost perfect grades over these last five weeks. I'm grateful for the time management tables I took advantage of. People don't realize how much time they actually waste in a day.
This morning I am feeling so awful. Ava woke up earlier than usual (never happens). She is not a happy camper when she gets changed before she gets food. I did it anyway, because she soaked her diaper. Lately, Ava has been swinging her arms and smacking things out of our hands. This morning, that happened to be my cell phone. It fell down on her little face and I felt completely awful. First the cider in the face a couple weeks ago, now the phone on her sweet, baby face? Talk about feeling like a failure. I know as parents we can't be completely perfect. I just want to be as close to perfect as I can (when it comes to Ava) because she deserves the best. I'm really hard on myself when it comes to Princess A.
I also started packing Justin a lunch for work. Over his long weekend we crunched some numbers and realized by him eating out for lunch each day, we spend over $230.00! We were both shocked. So, for the sake of saving, we are packing his lunch. He actually gets more from me than he would a convenience store.
This morning I am feeling so awful. Ava woke up earlier than usual (never happens). She is not a happy camper when she gets changed before she gets food. I did it anyway, because she soaked her diaper. Lately, Ava has been swinging her arms and smacking things out of our hands. This morning, that happened to be my cell phone. It fell down on her little face and I felt completely awful. First the cider in the face a couple weeks ago, now the phone on her sweet, baby face? Talk about feeling like a failure. I know as parents we can't be completely perfect. I just want to be as close to perfect as I can (when it comes to Ava) because she deserves the best. I'm really hard on myself when it comes to Princess A.
I also started packing Justin a lunch for work. Over his long weekend we crunched some numbers and realized by him eating out for lunch each day, we spend over $230.00! We were both shocked. So, for the sake of saving, we are packing his lunch. He actually gets more from me than he would a convenience store.
Tomorrow Miss Ava will be five months (be on the look out for that blog post) and I couldn't be more emotional. She's almost half of one year old. It's insane for me to think that soon I'll have a one year old. Fingers crossed that she will be spending her birthday among family. The compassionate reassignment is still underway. I don't know when we'll receive news, I'm hopeful it'll be soon.
I decided that today is going to be a mommy and Ava day. Not that everyday isn't, but I'm usually trying to multi-task throughout the day. I actually read an article from one of my instructors about this. Apparently our minds can only focus on one task fully. Today my only task is snuggling my babe. She's asleep right now, which explains why I'm writing this.
Well I'm off to look up recipes for the holidays. My admissions counselor actually told me about a recipe for pumpkin seeds. Brown sugar and such. Apparently it makes the seeds taste like kettle corn! I'm excited! Enjoy your Wednesday all!
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Before I write anything else, I just want everyone to know, I am aware that we are only in the month of October. I just couldn't fight the urge to completely Christmify my blog. It honestly makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. I've been playing the Michael Buble Christmas c.d. all day long. All I really need is for Georgia's weather to get with the program.
I hate that I can't experience Autumn in this state. Instead of scarves, boots, and leggings; I'm wearing summer dresses, capris and sandals. Am I going to allow that to stop me from being a lover of holidays? I think not! We are actually suppose to be going through a tropical depression with a chance of a "cold front" I highly doubt the cold front. Today was good. I'm tired and a little more drained than usual, but I can't complain.
We are making progress on the compassion reassignment requirements. Having my mom's doctors' on a different coast and time zone have made things a bit more challenging. Ava has been a character today. Each time I have tried to leave a message with someone involving the compassion reassignment stuff, she starts yelling. She hasn't yelled in about a week, so it kind of caught me by surprise. I got a laugh out of it though. My girl knows just what to do to keep her mama smiling. It's crazy how little beings are good that way.
I'm feeling bad for my mom and sister today. They are both sick! My mama barely has a voice. I was kind of bummed because I really wanted to talk to her today. I know we have messaging, but I hate texting and she honestly needs to rest. I'm hoping they start to feeling better really soon. As I'm writing this Miss Ava decided it would be okay to scoot halfway across my area rug.. That is not okay! I'm off for now! Enjoy your Tuesday all!
I hate that I can't experience Autumn in this state. Instead of scarves, boots, and leggings; I'm wearing summer dresses, capris and sandals. Am I going to allow that to stop me from being a lover of holidays? I think not! We are actually suppose to be going through a tropical depression with a chance of a "cold front" I highly doubt the cold front. Today was good. I'm tired and a little more drained than usual, but I can't complain.
We are making progress on the compassion reassignment requirements. Having my mom's doctors' on a different coast and time zone have made things a bit more challenging. Ava has been a character today. Each time I have tried to leave a message with someone involving the compassion reassignment stuff, she starts yelling. She hasn't yelled in about a week, so it kind of caught me by surprise. I got a laugh out of it though. My girl knows just what to do to keep her mama smiling. It's crazy how little beings are good that way.
I'm feeling bad for my mom and sister today. They are both sick! My mama barely has a voice. I was kind of bummed because I really wanted to talk to her today. I know we have messaging, but I hate texting and she honestly needs to rest. I'm hoping they start to feeling better really soon. As I'm writing this Miss Ava decided it would be okay to scoot halfway across my area rug.. That is not okay! I'm off for now! Enjoy your Tuesday all!
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Today has been the best day I've had all week. Best isn't really the right word, more like today is the first day I haven't cried. Today I woke up being thankful instead of being filled with guilt. Even with all that's going on right now, I'm trying to sort through the positives my life offers me. My mother, man she truly is a trooper. Here I am weeping for her, but she has yet to weep for herself. All she wants is her family near her. This time of year is for family and I'm praying that we will soon be with her! Okay, I promised myself I'd write a semi-happy post today, so here we go! As of last night, I started listening to Christmas music. If you know me, you'd know this usually starts in August for me. I love Christmas. I love the holidays. I love the tradition. It uplifts my spirit in ways that I can't even explain. To make things better having Miss Ava here just takes my spirit to mountain tops of happiness. I've been focusing a lot on this season. What traditions my little family will choose to do.
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Decorate our house in Halloween decor
carve pumpkins
roast pumpkin seeds
get dressed up and pass out Halloween candy (until our kids are old enough to go trick or treating)
bust out the Autumn decor
Attend parades (especially if we are in Washington)
Football is a given
Possibly volunteer at a soup kitchen (not sure with Ava being so small)
I also want to try a new breakfast/appetizer this year. Who knows, Justin may love it so much, we can continue doing it every year.
BLACK FRIDAY SHOPPING
Snagging a real, pine Christmas tree!
decorate the tree the day after black Friday. Hot cider/hot cocoa the works AND allow the Christmas music to commence
Christmas Music the entire month!
Hang up our wreaths and lights around the house
Get Christmas photos taken and then send them out
Have a Christmas movie night with Kettle popcorn (home alone is a classic)
Read Ava Twas the night before Christmas... every night for the entire month
Zoo lights!
Add a new ornament to the tree for another year Justin and I have been together
Go caroling? (Far fetched for Justin)
Church is a given (if we are in Washington)
I think some of my other ideas for Christmas could be:
- Make gingerbread houses
- Drive around the neighborhood to see houses decorated with lights for Christmas
- Christmas countdown calendar (especially when Ava is older)
- PJ day! Have the family wear the same PJ's for Christmas morning
I know traditions are just something new you try with your family that ends up being a big hit. We have plenty of time to add on traditions. Christmas is by far my favorite holiday, and this year is even more special for me.
That's all for now. I've got to start on dinner for this evening and dessert. Cooking new recipes has been very calming for me. I know my husband doesn't mind, he gets to try all new, yummy foods! Enjoy your Saturday All! Hold your loved ones!
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
It's coming up so quickly, Christmas is in 99 days! This year is especially special to me (yes I'm discussing Christmas in September) and I can no longer contain my excitement. I didn't get to spend Christmas with Justin last year because he was deployed and Ava hadn't made her grand entrance yet. I blog a lot more on tumblr than I do blogspot and all I see in my dash is everything Christmas. I'm ready for warm fires, a perfect Christmas tree and my family together for the holiday's. I know Ava isn't old enough to understand the significance of this time of year, but I'd like to start adding on some family traditions that we can carry through her childhood and even her adult years. Justin's grandmother has always made us Christmas tree ornaments each year of our marriage, so I'm excited to see what she comes up with for Ava. I've already started brainstorming what I want our family photos to look like for December AND we've already purchased our outfits for these photos. They could change from now to then, but getting into this prep stage makes me all warm and fuzzy. This has always been my favorite time of the year. You get to watch miracles happen. People are overcome with kindness, warm hearts, and truly embrace the spirit of giving.
You also get to blast Christmas jams, watch all your favorite holiday movies, and snuggle with loved ones while sipping cider or cocoa. Yes, you guessed right, I am a total cliche holiday junkie! The fact that I have my little girl here, has made my excitement multiply by like 1,000,000. I can't wait to make the switch with her lullabies. We started silver bells, but it really is too soon to bust out in Christmas song. Ahh! the feeling I'm feeling right now is what life is all about. Making memories with the people who count, starting traditions, being together. Spending these "first years" with my child. I think my Christmas spirit is so overwhelming heavy that my husband is also anticipating all that is winter. This year, will be a year to remember!
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